{Animus}

[adstring_npc]

[ there is a static hum on everyone's PCD, as the screen goes black. it starts to whisper, before ghostly voices seep through the communication lines ]


thicker than water
and harder to _clean

but true ties are on the inside
which makes them messy to ^connect
the spots we tried some didn't fit

do not forget

we tried to believe

Comments

[ahandsomedevil.livejournal.com]

[In a sense, someone did--someone is being hurt--but Horst can't tell her that. He can't even say the name.]

It's too late now, isn't it? You already went.

[buntails.livejournal.com]

What happened?! I can fix it. If something happened because of me... If I don't even know what, how can I do anything about it?!

[Horst, this is possibly the worst thing you could do to her. Hear those tears? See them?]

[buntails.livejournal.com]

Try harder? To do what?

[ahandsomedevil.livejournal.com]

[The worst thing for him is that there isn't anything she can do. There may not even be anything he can do, at this point. And it kills him.]

You can't.

[adstring-npc.livejournal.com]

[buntails.livejournal.com]

[The sudden energy leaves her and she all but whispers]

What happened?

[adstring-npc.livejournal.com]

[buntails.livejournal.com]

[Well that sends a cold chill through her.]

No.

[adstring-npc.livejournal.com]

we have eternity to wait

[buntails.livejournal.com]

[The worst part is how she close she is anyway. The way this place toys with bonds between people, the way it dampens her abilities to help when things get out of control, the way it makes her be forgotten... these are calculated to be the worst blows.]

I can't. I have to go back to Mama and Papa some day, and Mamo-chan. I have to be strong and not break, for them.

[ahandsomedevil.livejournal.com]

[But at this point it's too much to think about, with everything else that has happened. He can't think about it right now, he can't, he can't--]

It doesn't matter.

[adstring-npc.livejournal.com]

we can take that too

[buntails.livejournal.com]

I see. It was that bad.

[She's the worst. She wasn't even thinking. Now people are hurt because of her and she didn't even know. She was so wrapped up in-

Her thoughts race on and on as she cries.]

I'm sorry.

[buntails.livejournal.com]

No. I won't let that happen at all.

[sun-lord-ra.livejournal.com]

As I said, it's not.

Who are you?

[adstring-npc.livejournal.com]

what then

[buntails.livejournal.com]

It hasn't.

[adstring-npc.livejournal.com]

oh

^we're _everyone

[ahandsomedevil.livejournal.com]

[Horst shakes his head, wanting badly to comfort her, but what can possibly be said? Everything he said was the truth.]

I just--

I'm sorry.

[adstring-npc.livejournal.com]

are you sure?
perception is everyone

[buntails.livejournal.com]

[It goes so far beyond Horst. It goes back a thousand years - more. It goes back to every hateful thing believed about her that has been so far from the truth - the Moon Kingdom that was never planning to take over Earth, the future queen who never wanted to reject the descendants of Nemesis, the mother who never hated or neglected her daughter but only wanted to teach her to grow up and stand on her own - and every time she's had to wonder if it's true.

She feels like she shouldn't be around people. And it doesn't help that she's felt out of sorts somewhat anyway, with so many friends forgetting her - six of them in two weeks - and so many coming and going. Trying to hold it together for Rei and Zack has been hard now that the one forgetting is Cloud.]

I'm sorry Horst.

[And she doesn't even know why.]

[sun-lord-ra.livejournal.com]

Do you really expect me to believe that?

[ahandsomedevil.livejournal.com]

[And as much as his soul protests, Horst cares about her, and it hurts him that he hurt her.

His voice softens, and he sounds defeated, helpless.]

It's not your fault. You didn't even go all the way into the City....

[buntails.livejournal.com]

Horst... [Her voice comes out calm, but very quiet.]

Please at least tell me what happened. I haven't heard anything about this.

[flameandpassion]

[Now you've gone and done it, Horst.

You've made Usagi upset. And now, you're guilting her.

Which means you've pissed Rei off.]

Shut up.